12:04am...............Friday morning and I have no class today and I am more than grateful for that. My mind is bogged down with math and anatomical models. Its still stuck in translation mode from the African professor with 6 degrees one a medical mind you, and the lecture that was the beginning of the end. I am enjoying going to class though. I love being back in school I just want so badly to do well, extremely well for my guy. I mean he is footing the bill totally out of pocket. If I don't get A's I will feel guilty as hell.
That is issue one......the second and the one that persists is the fact that he thinks I am disgustingly fat. "I want you to work on getting a body that we can both love" his words. Welcome home eating disorder. I over think every single thing that I eat now. Every minute of my day is a question of is he watching me eat, Is he looking at my stomach, Who is he texting now, which one. Jezz i am so screwed up.
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